If I Had

If I had
Tried it first, earlier
in life,
I would have had more
Time,
To be better.

If I had
Never quit, or given up
the dream,
I would have had the
Chance,
To be the one.

If I had
Never tried, at all
to compete,
I would have never felt
The heartbreak,
Of never being enough.

If I had
Chosen this, instead of that
aspiration,
I might have more
Answers.
Or I might be even more
Lost.

If I had,
Or if I hadn’t…
Would I still be
Who I am
Now?