I loosen my grip,
Lift up my hands,
Let everything slide
Away.
I move each finger,
Maintain my composure,
Make myself take a
Breath.
I stare at my reflection,
Sigh so I can think,
See the pain mixed with
Hope.
I blink back the tears,
Break away from the mirror,
Bring myself to face the
Truth.
My grip will never be,
Tight enough, to hold on,
To anything that isn’t
God’s plan.
Category: poem
Frozen
Green.
That’s how it started,
when life was new,
when spring arrived.
But spring became summer.
Heat and drought
stole the color.
And broke the stem.
Wind came and chilled
the air and the ground.
Scattering, shattering,
forcing it to go away.
To a new home, or place,
down on the ground.
Unprotected, a victim,
to the glass cold hold
Of the ice.
Even if the sun comes,
even if the ice melts,
even if the leaf thaws,
it’ll never go back
to the life it knew.
It’ll never go back,
onto the branch.
It’ll never grow back,
onto the tree.
It’ll never again,
be green.
Through
Let me see the sun
Through your eyes.
It might help me
Understand
The reflections in mine.
Not Done
one decision, one second, that
can’t be undone
brought me here, to a place
where memories haunt.
everything spun, out of control,
but seemed slower
than real life ever could—
accenting each mistake,
the regrets, the words unsaid,
screamed louder than
before—and echoed behind closed
lids. keeping me from peace.
but the silence now seems louder
than the screams ever dreamed,
leaving only the pounding truth
of my own heartbeat.
dreams, plans, and goals, can
just disappear, with
the next breath, the next blink,
leaving everything, everyone, behind.
life isn’t ours to keep.
it belongs to the One who
created it,
Who makes plans I can’t comprehend,
showing love that’s not deserved.
with arms outstretched, He reached
from east to west,
welcoming me back, no matter
how far I’ve wandered.
He takes the lies I hold as truth,
and showers me
with His grace and mercy,
telling my heart it’s okay,
telling me I am loved, that
I am more
than my mistakes and faults,
that there is a purpose,
Because He isn’t done with me yet.
Dandelion
We picked them as children,
Seeing a pretty flower,
A rarity, a prize,
Running around with the stem,
Clutched in our fists,
Until we found the perfect spot,
The exact moment, to hold it up
To the sky, to the light, twirling it
In our fingers, thinking,
Dreaming, of what to wish.
Air filled our cheeks, our eyes clenched shut.
We puckered our lips, exhaling
Sending dozens of parachutes into flight,
Hope clinging tightly to each one,
Even if we never knew where they landed.
Now, they’re only weeds—a
nuisance, somewhere they don’t belong.
Interrupting our lawns, our gardens,
Choking the crops or the roses,
Stealing their water and sun.
But what if they’re the products
Of a parachute we sent off as kids—
Floating, flying, falling, finding right
Where to land, where to live, to grow,
In order to teach us, again, to dream, to hope,
Right in the place we need it most.
Keys
You said all you knew
Of the piano,
Were the sad chords.
Of heartbreak, of
Disappointment.
I watched your reflection
In the smooth, shiny black
Of the music stand.
Your eyes stayed down,
staring at the keys.
If only everything was
black or white.
Right or left.
Half or whole.
You played without music,
Your ears led the way.
I stayed silent, wondering
If you could ever believe
Your talent was worth the pain.
Our eyes met, and held
But our walls stayed in place.
I could teach you the happy chords.
Or you could teach me the sad—
The best melodies are made from both.
Not Enough
words fail, when they
should say everything.
but the blank page
intimidates the tender heart.
the ink wants to glide,
but the mind holds tight,
afraid of what the
consequence might be
if, when set free, the
words would mean more
to the heart, the mind
who wrote them, than
to the eye they’re given
to. an uneven distribution,
a fear of them being
too much. or worse—
they won’t ever be enough.
