Magic

Magic. Not the abracadabra kind. Not the make wishes come true kind. Not the black caldron of spells kind. But the kind you find within yourself. The kind you find when you accomplish the impossible. The little spark inside your heart when you find a dream.

She used to chase that magic on the field, in the circle. Spinning and striking, swinging and swiping. Then she chased it in the arena, collecting and clearing, cadencing and celebrating.

But now, that magic is found not in her awards, as her dreams wait their turn. But in little fingers, little toes. Big smiles and baby curls. In fixing boo boos with one kiss. In words like “mama” and “more,” “hug” and “hooray.” In arms reaching up. In first tastes of something new. In new feats figured out.

In their precious heart beats.

Some say her magic has been lost. But she says it’s only just begun.

Shiloh Rose

A peace, a calmness, a quietness,

At depths I won’t try to explain.

Tranquility, like I’ve never known,

That overwhelms worry and pain.

More than I could ever ask for,

Or could have even dreamt.

Abundance, an overflowing cup,

Every unknown need and desire met.

A present, first wrapped in uncertainty,

That truth and love quickly replaced.

His gift, His blessing, His promise,

His light shining in a brand new face.

A name to represent all of this,

The emotions, the change, the growth,

To remember, yet look forward to,

All the beauty of Shiloh Rose.

Simon Ray

two small lines that meant so much,
drawn by Hands who create life.
just a moment, memory,
the start of new love and light.

filled with wonder, filled with hope,
of all to come, of all you’d be.
worried of being enough,
wondering if we were ready.

the months went by slow, but quick,
the time came for us to meet.
excitement, fear, tied in one,
my doubts had to take a back seat.

holding you in my arms, the
happy tears in your dad’s eyes,
our family, now made of three,
at the sound of your first cries.

i’m humbled, awestruck, thankful,
for all that’s brought us to today.
for the miracle God brought us,
the miracle of Simon Ray.

Yours

a new role, a new look
on life and all that matters.

a little hand now grasps
my heart, changing how I see

my faith, Your love, Your son,
and all that You’ve done for me.

i can’t write the story
You’ve already done just that.

so why do i still try
to take the pen, rewrite it?

all that does is cause me
worry, and costs time, peace, sleep.

it does no good for me
to grip, cling to my plans when

nothing I do or say
can change the good of Your ways.

even though i hold him,
treasure and protect his heart,

You are the author, the
Creator, the Sustainer

of his life. i can’t change
what is to come, because You

have it all planned. but i
trust and give him to Your will.

he is Yours, not mine, and
You are much greater than i.